Lilac did so well back at the doctors place that White takes them out to a restaurant right after.

* inspired note:

• the chairs and general building style is stolen from a local burger king establishment
• the rest is original work

White thought about it. is BK really the right thing right now?.. they decided yes, yes it is.
Lilac is still exhausted from earlier but a chili chee burger is sure to cheer them up, even if they picked the fries first.

Lilac is very thankful that White reads them so well.

yes this is the first time i used those perspective things in Krita… i’m sure u can tell me all the ways i used it wrong.

i wanted to try a somewhat different style, so here we are.

this post builds on this one btw, if you care… you may wanna read that one too.

still no catbox. it’s still broken, can you believe that? it’s been broken for like a week by now.c

i hope u have a lovely day and that you have someone to eat unhealthy food with <3

consent is important. you wouldn’t wanna feed… someone who doesn’t like it. even if it hurts not to.

i hope orange is happy.

sorry, still no high quality catbox images. it’s still broken apparently. it’s been down for about a week by now?

the next post will be more upbeat, i promise… or at least i hope it will be. i could have put an *inspired note to explain the situation but i won’t as that would feel wrong. not everything needs background.

if orange doesn’t want to be fed, that’s okay… it’s okay. even if it may be an emotional shock at first… it must be accepted.

i have been accepted. and so should i do it for others. and i do. but sometimes, very rarely, it is so much harder than it should be.

when you like making bit jokes and your friend says that they really hate them and don’t want to be involved in any way… it hurts a little. and you might consider leaving that friend behind. maybe. or maybe y’all figure it out. that would be awesome.

Orange may come across more aggressive as intended, but that is because they are setting boundaries and don’t want to be misunderstood. even if swears make Lilac very sad. Lilac will make it over these feelings even if it may take some time.

White will always be there for Lilac, that is for sure. now Lilac knows that Orange is not someone to toy with. Orange is not a toy. and Lilac wont treat them as such anymore.

Orange isn’t White after all. thank god.

i hope you have a wonderful and lovely day and that you find someone with whom setting and learning boundaries is a vulnerable, understanding and empathetic experience.

will this rule or will it not? we might never know if we don’t ask it. carefully caressing the swirl might not be enough to uncover the truth. what will White do?

still no catbox link. will update the three posts from today once it works again. so unfortunately, y’all will have to deal with the terrible quality blahaj zone upload.

will White risk it all and grasp the Lilac swirls? or will they leave them be, from the fear of falling down?

White feels confident. but this confident? they don’t know.

one thing White does know is that when they grasp onto the swirls without them shying away, that will be good.

White can’t tell if these ones will shy away. they sure look nice and feel nice but those are just observations, not signals. or maybe they are signals? who knows.

maybe Whites experience isn’t unique. maybe the swirls invite anyone? but what if it’s something special for them in particular? it sure feels special.

for now, White will glide along with the lilac swirls without touching them. keeping a safe distance feels safe for now, despite how intriguing and comforting they might feel.

it’s difficult. no matter what’s said, it will be interpreted, made links to and regurgitated in other heads, regardless of how direct it is.

again, no catbox image today, sorry y’all. this one is made with Krita and… cranked out in about 15 minutes or so. but… whatever, it holds meaning i think.

can you guess what the bubbles are saying? lemme know! <3

i said last post that day 13 might be about a dream coming true.
and yes, something i secretly wanted turned true, unprompted. it is depicted in the image.

if you are having real trouble interpreting it, see the alt text. can usually be found by hovering the image itself.

i am realizing i need to be very careful now with whom i share my lemmy account. oh well. then again, at some point it wont matter anymore. thoughts are meant to be shared, no? even the silly and small ones.

words are awfully permanent but meant to represent a moving world. hows that supposed to work, hm? it largely works well by making up words that represent movement and expecting the reader or listener to experience the content in a linear fashion.

im half crazy.

sigh … planted one day by a glancing dart. still growing. oh gosh still growing. doesn’t even need water. it just grows as-is.

i gotta now go make the third post so that we have something for tomorrow aswell… maybe. i don’t know.

have spent more time on writing this than making the image. oh well, it’s still what i wanted it to be. its fine.

i hope you have a lovely day ~

i am lukewarm and i hate it. i want to be warm or hot but i am lukewarm. i am scared of becoming rotten. going crazy at the thought of being warm, but actually being ice-cold.

catbox still having issues rn. so for now, imma have to rely on blahaj zones terrible image compression algo, making my low res posts look like a poorly timed slobbery kiss on the elbow.

there is a flower within my heart.
daisy. daisy!
planted one day by a glancing dart.
planted by daisy bell ~
whether she loves me or loves me not…
sometimes its hard to tell.
yet i am longing to share the lot
of beautiful daisy bell.

sorry for not making a post yesterday. i will try to make it up to yall today… lets see if i can do it.

i feel myself getting colder, despite being oh so kindly warmed up recently. i don’t want to be too much. and i am not too much, i am in fact rather ambient. one might say lukewarm.

i opened myself in a way i haven’t done before and was welcomed in a way i couldn’t even have wished for. it made me so unbelievably happy, i could barely breathe at the time. and i still am happy about it, but my focus not shifted.

how do i make sure im not too much? what i shared was heavy but was taken with such such care that it felt like a dream come true. funnily, it literally was, but that’s for another day. maybe day 13, who knows.

here it is. the spoon feeding post i’ve been meaning to do for over a month by now.

yes, i’ve been discussing this plenty with a particular peep on matrix and now it’s here. horray. the one, the only, the legendary spoon feeding post where Lilac feeds White a bit of pureed apple ~

truly a sight to behold, hm? the time has come and oh is this time bringing us the one post we have all been waiting for!!!

looks at presumably low like number

… okay fine, maybe it was just me.

anyway, i hope this makes at least some peeps here happy. maybe. or maybe not…

maybe we will have someone claiming again that this is … a fetish post… which i didn’t find cool last time. aaaaanyway-

this is day 11. even tho, right now, it’s actually only day 9. yes, i am pre-producing here. this post is meant to be the post for in two days actually. but… scheduling posts isn’t possible here, so y’all get it early. merry Lilac-and-White-mas… merry.

anyway

there is a flower within my heart - daisyyyy - daisyyyy!
planted one day by a glancing dart.
planted by daisy bell.
whether she loves or looooves me not.
sometimes it’s haaard to teeeell!
yet i am longing to shaaaare the lot.
of beautiful daaaaisy beellll!!!
daisyyyy daisyyyy - give me ur answer dooooo ~
im half craaazyyyyy - all for the looooove of youuuuu ~ ~ ~
it won’t be a styliiiish marriageeeee-
i can’t affooooord a carriaaage-
but youuuuu’ll look sweet-
ooooon the seat-
of a bicycle buiiiiilt for twwoooooooo ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

here’s a fun version of that song, sung by miku. it’s nice and soothing. it’s fun. and if u want even more soothing… see here.

EDIT: i made an updated version because i forgot a CRUCIAL story beat!!! the obligatory “say aaaaah” bit!
how could i have forgotten that?
anyway, catbox is broken again… so have this poor quality blahaj zone version for now:

the world can be so very scary. a good friend can help with this a lot sometimes.

when i got my blood drawn last time, i had no one. they ended up moving me to the room with an open window for… especially scared patients. i hid my face and covered my eyes because i believed it would make things easier. they would draw three times over the course of an hour. i think it helped.

the nurse person said “you are doing this very well” which -… made me feel things at a point in time where it wasn’t needed, so i said “thank you, you are doing this well too.” which i did mean genuinely, i have had much worse experiences. but - it also just felt weird.

one thing that can help: if you noticed that one … arm is easier than the other, tell the staff about that! this way they wont miss-poke you since they are working with the easier arm. previously, a nurse got completely stuck on my left arm, poking three times and not getting it. then they tried the right one and it worked flawlessly, even calling it “easy”. this might be worth knowing about yourself.

maybe, after Blue over here is done getting the blood, White could drive Lilac to the next chili chee place because of how very brave they were? that would be very sweet, wouldn’t it? ~

i will make one more post today so that i filled the slots for tomorrow and the day after tomorrow as i wont have access to my laptop at that point. and i don’t wanna make low quality posts. so here i go making more posts.

i wish you a lovely and not-scary day <3

well well well a bow, huh? i wonder what this one is inspired by.

* inspired note:

• certainly inspired by a show. you have seen it by now, this isn’t much of a spoiler anymore, is it?
  • how about this: i just wont tell you from which one this is. and if u wanna know: send me a dm.
• the rest is my work

here i am again. got too much freetime and been getting a lil lazy. i didn’t redraw the couch, i just copied it. lazy me. very lazy. that’s like when artists just change the eyes and mouth and keep the rest the same! this sucks. imma try not do it. i don’t wanna be lazy.

at least i redrew White here, when they got the bow ~

i tried my best making Lilacs hand movement onto Whites hand look slow and deliberate, but that’s difficult. so now u just get a swirly line.

more purpleposts incoming soon probably.

have a lovely day ~
and if you want to, i wish that someone puts a bow on you.